I’ve been putting off this blog post because well… even as I write, I feel like I have nothing to write… Nothing encouraging to say…
Nothing to give.
I feel both physically and spiritually spent. In all honestly, May had been one hell of a month. LITERALLY. IT’S. BEEN. HELL. So much so, that I could possibly be packing my bags and heading back to the dirty of South Carolina. Yes… you read correctly: I could be leaving the city in just a few days. But there’s just one thing… I have this enigmatic feeling, down deep in my gut, in my spiritman, that God’s not done with me here just yet.
I can’t explain the feeling of wonder and apprehension that I’m currently experiencing, you’ll have to live through a stretch of faith to really understand. However, I will say that this has me on the edge of hope and admitted defeat. Breakthrough and a total breakdown.I know I’m usually here to spread inspiration, but this is me, with very little to give.
Don’t get me wrong, yes, my faith had been stretched but God has been placing little miracles on my path for the last month and now it’s time for them to come to fruition. These last few days of the month will be the countdown to my testimony.
I stand in the knowledge that God will not and has not left me in all of this; even in my darkest moments, I have been met with His overwhelming and unexplainable peace. So, that’s what I have to rest in. I am still encouraged that my situation can turn around in an instant and by the time June comes around, I know I’ll have a testimony to share with you all. But I wanted to write this now, in the midst of the storm for my personal reference and to show you all that even though everything is not all peachy keen in the world of Aley Arion, God is still faithful.
Hmmm… I guess I did have something to write…
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Peace, peace, peace,