Things are weird in my world.
And as hard as I try, I can’t quite put my finger on the cause.
If my memory serves me correct, February through March have always served as a seasonal period of change in my life. Winter is still holding on for dear life, while I hold on to my youth for dear life as my birthday comes around.
To take you back to my world this time last year is to enter a whirlwind of epic proportions. I had just received my first “real world” job offer out of school and soon after, my line brother from college was killed in a car accident after we had just shared dinner at Hooters the week prior. At the same time, my move to the big city was quickly approaching and I knew my time with my family was coming to an end. I tried my best to celebrate my own birthday while juggling the grief from the loss of my friend, along with the grief that would come from separating from my home base days later.
*Note to my reader: if you’re planning on doing a big move, I wouldn’t plan it around your birthday. It’ll be too emotional, spare yourself the turmoil*
Fast forward to today, and well, I report live from the midst of a very similar storm; not so much regarding grief, but more so internal battles with decisions that are going to require another level of pulling from my big girl panties.
My biggest fear is complacency and I’ve come to noticed that the forces of change come to interrupt my life whenever I’m close to sinking into the pit of it. Change is uncomfortable. It alters your sense of normality and uproot all feelings of contentment.But I’ve also come to learn that normal is synonymous with mediocrity and comfort is the theft of greatness. If you feel like you’ve reached your best, you’ll never strive to do better.I don’t want to embrace this season of change but I’m going to. And I will do so with as much grace and fortitude as I can muster up within me, and look fly while doing it.
Graphic Tee – Thrifted
Corduroy Jacket: Thrifted Slip Dress
Jeans: Old Navy
Photos by the amazingly talented, Taylor Jerry (IG: @t4y.10r)
Before you go: Checking in! How you feeling? Are you experiencing change in your world? Leave a comment below letting me know how you’re handling it? I’d love to hear!
Peace, peace, peace,