Sup Royalty,

It’s been quiet around here…  maybe too quiet.0001-59290149

Today is my 2 year blogversary, but I’m not really in a celebratory mood. But before I get into why, let me give you all a life update.

Nothing significantly amazing or noteworthy has transpired in my life as of recently. I’m unemployed and spend most of my day on the internet. My sense of joy has been fluctuating between rock-bottom and “ehh, I think I can make it.” Quite frankly, if this is how life is supposed to be post-grad, then I’ll take being a super-senior for 500, Alex.

You see, a few months ago I made the decision to give my life completely over to God. I’ve been saved since 2007, but it wasn’t until I was totally down in the dumps towards the latter part of my senior year that I sat in my dorm room, with tears flooding from my eyes, and told God, “Here you go. I give you my life, my blog, my career, my love life, everything.” I told God to make me over and to do what he wanted to do with my life because it wasn’t like I had much left of it to hold on to anyway. Let’s just say I didn’t consider the gravity of what I was committing to at the time, because that’s when everything changed; for what seemed like the worst.

Nothing in my life came easy anymore; from receiving opportunities to making friends or even getting out of bed every morning…

You see, when you really truly give your life to the Lord, it’s not all rainbows and unicorns dancing on the skyline of Heaven; you’re going to go through what seems like hell. You’re going to feel like God has abandoned you; like He’s left you in the wilderness with no food or water, while He’s sitting up on his throne, chillin’, watching Love and Hip Hop with His angels. But let me be the first to tell you that couldn’t be further from the truth.

When God said that he would never leave us or forsake us, he wasn’t lying!


So you may be still wondering, “Aley, what’s wrong then? It’s your blog’s birthday, you should be celebrating!” And maybe you’re right, I should be. Most blogs don’t make it pass their first year of inception, so I am doing better than most. But since we’re keeping it 100 here, I honestly thought that my blog would be a lot further than where it is today. I put a lot of time, research and love into each post that I create for my readers and since I’m an artist, I’m sensitive about my stuff (that’s an Erykah Badu reference for those of you who aren’t familiar lol). So when people don’t read my posts or my views don’t match the effort I put into them, it hurts. Deeply.

Don’t get me wrong, I love and appreciate everyone who has taken the time to follow, like, comment and even share my posts. Like, you all have NO idea how much that means to me because it fuels me to keep going. But I have to tell it like it is.

And then on top of all of that I’ve swirled back into my old ways of comparing my journey to people I see on my social media pages and like I’ve always said, that will kill your joy quicker than any rejection/disappoint ever could. Watching people seemingly prosper before you when you’re trying to live for the Lord will have you wanting to turn back to your old ways, but I know that’s not the move for the advancement of my spiritual journey; but it’s tempting! lol

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I guess there is some kind of silver-lining in the mist of all of this: God. When you really choose to live for Him, I mean really choose to live for Him, you have to realize that God has to take you through a molding process. He has to strip you down, take away some old habits, your comfort and anything else that you are holding on to, so that all that is left is Him. And that’s where I’m at.

God is taking me through this season for a reason that I cannot see right now. But I know it’s for a purpose that is bigger than me. So I have to refocus. I stress the topic of not comparing your journey to anyone else’s because those images, if you’re not careful, can start to eat away at you and even depress you. When the Word tells us to, Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life,” (Proverbs 4:23) some people think that it’s only referring to love & relationships, but you have to guard your heart against images of other people’s lives that cause you to compare, grow envious and lose sight of God.

So, here’s where I stand: it’s time to draw back.

This will be my last blog post for a month or so. Maybe until the end of October or whenever God says. I know that he’s been tugging on my heart to really get back to spending time with Him in prayer and by reading His word. I’ve lost focus and it’s time to get back to what matters which is finding what God has called me to do for His kingdom.

In my time away, I will be fasting from social media. No Instagram. No Twitter. No Facebook. No Snapchat (which I love). And maybe even no YouTube.

I’m looking forward to what God is going to do during this break period. And I’m sure that in this time, he’ll give me plenty more to write about upon my return so that I can continue to serve the best in fashion, faith, culture and lifestyle to you all *insert plug*.

Any who, Happy Birthday to Strawberrys & Carbonara!

And until next time, Royalty.

Much love,

Aley Arion rcnKzrAoi

You’ve just been served.

Posted by:aleyarion

when i first set out to create my blog, i just wanted an outlet to balance my mundane college schedule. but over the years, it has become so much more. writing is how i process my world & the events that take place within it. through aleyarion.com, i seek to help my fellow 20-somethings, like me, working to find light when their paths seem darkened and learn from my mistakes so i can save you the trouble of repeating them. aleyarion.com is witty, vulnerable, and transparent, but most importantly, it's me, unapologetically. peace, peace, peace Aley Arion business inquiries: aleyarion@gmail.com

5 replies on “Happy 2nd Birthday Strawberrys & Carbonara!: But Could This Be the End?

  1. If you want an example of how much your blog is appreciated look on mines. I highlighted a dozen blogs of the 98 I follow on the left and right of my main page. Yours is on it. I can relate to feeling like your views not matching your effort. I been here since 2011 and feel I should have been freshly pressed by now.

    1. Thank you so much for all of your support! As I mentioned in the post, comments like these are GREATLY appreciated and even going as far as to reblog them means the world to me. But yeah, sometime it can touch a soft spot when you don’t get the views you want, most definitely Keep going tho! I just have to take a break before I start to take things too much to heart lol.

  2. Happy belated blog anniversary! I can totallyyyy relate to this post. I was in the same place that you were last year, post grad…and super confused about the future. I feel like we all go through this time but I promise that you’ll look back on it one day and realize why you had to go through it. It’s extremely humbling to be fresh out of college and unemployed or working somewhere you know you aren’t supposed to be! I also totally understand where you’re coming from with the blog success…it’s so easy to get discouraged and compare your success to others but your journey is your own! Don’t allow yourself to get too wrapped up in self doubt…surround yourself with positive people, listen to some motivational podcasts on careers…read some good books.. it’s all going to be alright. Just keep praying and keep on pushing! ❤ 🙂

    1. Okay so please forgive my embarrassingly late response. I just got back to blogging and checking my notifications and when I say yours I almost cried. It means so much to hear that I’m not alone in how I feel/what I’m experiencing. I just got a job where I feel like, Lord what am I hear, but everyday I’m just working on changing my perspective to realize that he has me there for a reason. I truly appreciate all of the advice and I am taking it all to heart because you’re totally right: my journey is my own. Thank you so much for taking the time to send such a warm comment, it means the world. 🙂

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